Hmm, second time meeting up with Eric but I don't feel stressed talking to him.
Unlike other new people that I've met.
In fact it feels like I've known him for quite some time.
Anyway, main topic..
We met up, we talked.
But not talking cock lah. Blah.
He told us about his life.
& I must say he led an exciting life.
There were so much happening.
He may be a 'paikia', but he's got his own goals in life.
He knows exactly what he wants for his future.
As in, all he got was an N level cert.
& at the age of 20, what position is he in at service line?
A manager of a F&B company.
Can you imagine?
Like he said, he worked damn hard for it.
& all that he said led me thinking.
So what if he doesn't like to study?
So what if he quit schooling?
So what if he's not the good boy type?
He's got his future planned out.
& as for me?
So what if I come out as a diploma holder at the age of 20?
So what if I school?
So what when I did whatever I'm doing now?
For my future? No.
I have no plans for my future.
I've got no goals.
I have totally no idea what I want.
At the age of 20, he's a manager without high qualifications.
At the age of 20, I'm a lost soul with diploma.
Comparing like this, I feel so useless.
I have no where to go.
He said so much that I can't list all out.
But this really made sense,
Singapore is a highly competitive country. In years to come majority will be diploma holders.
So.. I was thinking, so what if I hold a diploma?
Even degree holders may find it difficult to get jobs.
I really wonder what I'm studying for.
Yes, I dislike studying.
& know why? Maybe cause I have no goals.
There is nothing in life that I want to achieve and fight for.
Success in the future, who won't want it?
Earn enough money for family and self, normal wish.
But how when there are no goals?
At times like this I really feel pathetic for myself -.-
I've been living, going 19 years.
& I don't know what I want or like.
Pathetic ain't it?
Listening to Eric, I feel so ashamed of myself.
Sigh.
Where do I start?
I'm heading no where )':
KAIEN.